When Train Runs late

When a train runs late, it feels like the most disastrous thing is happening. The trouble starts at home, the moment I hear that it's been rescheduled. Everything shifts from that point — plans begin to change.

Right now, I’m still on the train, even though we were supposed to reach our destination three hours ago. The delay has thrown everything off balance. Waiting, adjusting, and hoping — that’s all there is to do for now.

Sometimes It’s Hard

Sometimes, it becomes hard not to believe. But the situation forces me to. When that happens, it feels like something is wrong, either from my side or the other side. I can’t stay calm. My mind keeps thinking about it.

Pause Before the Next Splash

Today’s swim felt a lot like yesterday — familiar, steady, and full of quiet confidence. I’m still using the kickboard, still keeping my head up, and still kicking strong. I can feel it: bit by bit, I’m building something solid. 

The hard part? Today was my last swim for the week. I won’t be attending classes until next Monday. And honestly, that makes me a little sad. I’ve grown to love this daily rhythm — the movement, the learning, the feeling of getting better. 

But there’s a happy reason behind the break: I’m going on a trip! So while swimming pauses for a few days, life brings a different kind of joy. New places, new memories — and maybe even water I can float in.

I’ll be back next week, ready to swim again.

Phool Market, Kolkata 2023

The Balcony

Gouache painting, 2024.

Frame by Frame animation in Moho, using Blob Brush

 

I haven’t used this tool much before—honestly, I didn’t find it very useful at first. But recently, while planning a painting project, the idea struck me: Why not try using this tool for animation instead? It could be quicker than my usual process of hand-drawing strokes and filling spaces manually. 

So, I grabbed the audio from the 11 Second Club’s June competition and put together a quick animation clip. To my surprise, it went quite nicely! One of the best parts? The Blob Brush in Moho. It made things so much easier — almost like painting and sculpting shapes at the same time. It turned out to be a lot of fun and made the whole workflow feel smooth and creative. 

This might be the beginning of a new direction for my projects!

Confidence in Motion

Today felt different—in the best way. 

I felt much more confident in the water. With the kickboard, I practiced head-up swimming and really focused on fast, steady leg movement. Everything started to come together. For the first time, I didn’t feel like I was just trying—I felt like I was doing. 

The water felt familiar, my body felt stronger, and my mind was calm. I know there’s still a long way to go, but it finally feels like I’m heading in the right direction.

Portraits from Manali

Letting Go of the Wall

Another day in the pool, another small step forward. Today, I practiced paddling again—but this time, I used a kickboard instead of holding the side wall. It felt like a tiny leap of trust in myself. And it worked. I moved. Slowly, steadily. Forward. It’s nice to feel that shift—from holding on to letting go, even just a little. 

I’m definitely improving, and even though it’s still early, I can see the difference.

Yak riding at Hidimba Devi Temple, Manali

I saw the lights that looked really beautiful, it made me feel something special. I think I’ll paint it one day. I was really fond of how it looked.